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Next week..i have another conference but unfortunately it will be held just in Melbourne! No no break away trip this time..huhuhu.......nothing interesting! Why Melbourne??? Why not New Zealand??? Why not Brisbane???? Why not other places then Melbourne???? huh (sigh)

There are few delegates from Malaysia will be presenting their works... gud for networking!!! N gud for them..because they have the chances to come here...nway..actually i am cracking my head doing my presentation for the conference...it's seem like my mind is in 'freeze' mood! the truth is i have the slides done however deep inside i know how it will be on the day..darah gemuruh sumer datang!!! damn me...will forget n unable to think straight during presentation... huhuhuh people out there...any tips for cold feet like myself??!!! I am not very gud at public speaking...i don't like talking infront of a big crowd. How come aarrr i want to be a lecturer?!!! confused (^-^) I love teaching though! Really need some tips how to bombard my cold feet!

Bear with me yeah..my english wasn't that gud!!! hahaha...for those super duper english literate...please accept my honest apology for the wrong grammar n etc! hahaha..but if u don't mind correct me if i am wrong....

Back to life lately...when i look back...for all the sacrifices made by my hubby, kids, mom, in-laws and family. I felt like owing them the whole universe. I don't think i will be able to pay back their understanding,love, carring, time and etc. Gosh...it has been nearly 4 years now...staying a part from my family. Melbourne-Melaka-Parit Buntar... Back and forth Malaysia-Melbourne throughout these years. I missed my kids so much...i left fahmi when he was about 1 n half year old and now he is 5 years old. Time flies so quick, i don't even noticed how much he grown up until last August , we met! He with his quizzy questions..curiousity..happy tone..manja..like to attract attention..he has the character..he has the instinct..for young boy at his age..he's sooo tolerate with the situation! When his sister first went back to be with him..gosh only god knows how hard for him to accept her, Fatini. But now...my mom in-law told me he adores her so much..will protect her in any ways he could...will buy anything double..one for himself n not to forget one for her lil sister! He is her big bro! But when they become enemy...big war!!! no one could ever break their war...Hikhikhik..think of it make me wanna to cry..how much i missed both of you...how dearly i love u... My dear...mama will try hard to finish my task n job here n come back to be with u...be like one happy famili! Mama-Babah-Fahmi-Fatini...May Allah bless n help us all!

I've been keeping this feeling for quite sometime...so today i have decided to let it go...so that i can breath!! i need my soul to be strong for my loved one! i want to do the best for them... My dear hubby...i want u to know that i love u soooo much (infinity)..i really appreciated your understanding n courage for letting me did what i am doing rite now! Nothing will come between us. I love u more everyday! Can't wait to see you this Krismas...

My Love, Fazly...Thank you. Fahmi n Fatini sayang... Thank you! . My family...BIG THANKS! to all my friends near n far...Thanks for being there whenever i needed you guys the most!

Ganbatte Kundasai... Chaiyok! For everybody who is still in the battle of study... working... anything... All The Best! 'Allah will help those people who help themselves!' InsyaAllah....

What a relieved... :) Last but not least...Live your life to the Fullest...