Best is yet to be!

Best is yet to be!!! Errmmm..phrases that i've collected from my sister long time ago. It's soo hard to be the best! ? It's takes you aged to find your way to success, to become the best among the rest. I've noticed to be the best you need to be persistence, have a big heart and need to sacrifice a lots! Does it really matter??? To be the best! Because all that i ever wanted is a happy life..one happy famili...gud freinds... and of course the most is keredhaan dari yg Maha Esa. When i think back, all the ellements mentioned above are the key part to feel happy... errmmm...

Actually I am sooo anxious now about my journey here... am i going to be just fine finish my study with flying colours or be one of the unfortunate fella... Ya Allah please give me the strength! Please show me the ways...so i could streghten and in focus to acheive my dream. I have a dream...i have a plan...i have a decission to make... i have lot of choices to choose....May Allah make it easier for me.

I am trying my best now...however sometimes i slipped and lost! Huhuhuhu...anyway... i hope i will find the way very soon as now is the crucial stage of all. The most crucial time...pray for the best.

Zek n Onediana...i will answer to your tag very soon...still finding the 7 facts of myself!!!

Chiooowww...

Weekend Plans...

Since now nearly krismas.. everywhere sales..but not really sure how true the sales is! Anyway plan for the weekend will be more on shopping....hahahaa. We plan to go to the Garden Market at the Botanical Garden near Shrine of Rememberance in the morning. Other than shopping-we might have photos session as well there! I never go to the Botanical Garden for a walk.. never! I plan to hire a photographer to capture my moment with my hubby there soon!! When he is here next week... can't wait! So kena recce tempat dululah..nanti senang!! ciwinyer aku... sorry all..memang tak sabaq nak jumpak my dear love nih!!! :)

Lunch and then follows by shopping at the Closed Door Sales (CDS) - Classica Kitchen ( this one you need to register in order to get in!!)...There's a few range of stuffs for the CDS including Sirrico leather, woman fashion, kitchen ware and toys. The stores are scattered all over melbourne... and happened to be the Classica Kitchen is very close to my house..walking distance ( i never knew it before!!) ;) That is why we need to go and see what they offer us!!! Excited...

But for today... still pushing my limit for my thesis writing! sigh! Huhuhuhu.. anyway that's about it! The plans and hope the weather is good tomorrow! Before i pen off...
CONGRATULATION to NURUL.... she is expecting her first baby next year! I am truly happy for you n am. I'll pray for your safety my dear friend. Take care n do enjoy you moment of pregnancy ya!!!

Chiiooooow.

No raya mood aarr!!

Really2 don't have mood for Raya! No ketupat, no rendang, no nice baju kurung, no jemputan raya! huhuhuhu wake up this morning with a mixed feeling! Nak raya ke idak?! nak raya ke idak?! huhuhu ada pelawat lak kat opis n ada meeting tergempak lagik ngan sv... aduh mak...raya ke idak?! sama aja... :(

Selamat Hari Raya Haji...

Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all... We will celebrate raya haji on Monday. Unfortunately I was scheduled to talk in the PSG meeting... so raya after group meetinglah nampak gayanya!

Bydaway yahooo....the conference has finished on Thursday! Gud! I was sooo tired but i've enjoyed the conference very much. A lots of related n interesting research. Some more.. as i mentioned in the previous post, many Malaysian came this time. 3 students from USM (that's including myself) n 1 future colleague. 1 Assoc. Prof. from UITM. 1 SLAI Fellow from UPM but studying in Japan rite now! 1 Postdoc currently working in UQ.....

So that's why today kenalah balik ke office...have heap of stuffs to look at after about 1 week doing nothing but attending talks...okie dokie..have to pen off now! Chiowww...

Chem. Eng. Mixed Soccer Team

Today my entry will be all about my soccer team...yesterday when i asked my fren who are going to play for the game? he replied only 2 gals (me n merran) n about 4 guys!!!! oh my..oh my...no swap for gals meaning that i am going to play for solid 40 mins. that's teribble..so today before the game i was like preparing myself for the worth scenario - mentally n physically set to play cool for the whole game...i knew that i will be like 'sayur' after the game! huhuhuhu...when i arrived at the hockey pitch...i saw someone who haven't play for quite sometime...Clare!!! she got injured at her shoulder...ermmm....why is she doing here?!! (i thought!) then i approached her and say hi...asked her is she playing today?!! Yes... obviously now we have another gal..i'm soooooo happy! Seriously I can't help smiling....then later...Dewi came..there you go another gal! So end up we have 4 gals on the field...So we could take turn...and for guys from 4 ppl.. i guessed around 8 turned up! Hahaha...

Happy Ending!! We won the game 5-2. Yeaaaa...Break for a week..then semi-final...hope we get to final this season. (^-^)

Sooo serious..discussing the strategies..tactics...hikhikhik...

Live your life to the fullest!

Next week..i have another conference but unfortunately it will be held just in Melbourne! No no break away trip this time..huhuhu.......nothing interesting! Why Melbourne??? Why not New Zealand??? Why not Brisbane???? Why not other places then Melbourne???? huh (sigh)

There are few delegates from Malaysia will be presenting their works... gud for networking!!! N gud for them..because they have the chances to come here...nway..actually i am cracking my head doing my presentation for the conference...it's seem like my mind is in 'freeze' mood! the truth is i have the slides done however deep inside i know how it will be on the day..darah gemuruh sumer datang!!! damn me...will forget n unable to think straight during presentation... huhuhuh people out there...any tips for cold feet like myself??!!! I am not very gud at public speaking...i don't like talking infront of a big crowd. How come aarrr i want to be a lecturer?!!! confused (^-^) I love teaching though! Really need some tips how to bombard my cold feet!

Bear with me yeah..my english wasn't that gud!!! hahaha...for those super duper english literate...please accept my honest apology for the wrong grammar n etc! hahaha..but if u don't mind correct me if i am wrong....

Back to life lately...when i look back...for all the sacrifices made by my hubby, kids, mom, in-laws and family. I felt like owing them the whole universe. I don't think i will be able to pay back their understanding,love, carring, time and etc. Gosh...it has been nearly 4 years now...staying a part from my family. Melbourne-Melaka-Parit Buntar... Back and forth Malaysia-Melbourne throughout these years. I missed my kids so much...i left fahmi when he was about 1 n half year old and now he is 5 years old. Time flies so quick, i don't even noticed how much he grown up until last August , we met! He with his quizzy questions..curiousity..happy tone..manja..like to attract attention..he has the character..he has the instinct..for young boy at his age..he's sooo tolerate with the situation! When his sister first went back to be with him..gosh only god knows how hard for him to accept her, Fatini. But now...my mom in-law told me he adores her so much..will protect her in any ways he could...will buy anything double..one for himself n not to forget one for her lil sister! He is her big bro! But when they become enemy...big war!!! no one could ever break their war...Hikhikhik..think of it make me wanna to cry..how much i missed both of you...how dearly i love u... My dear...mama will try hard to finish my task n job here n come back to be with u...be like one happy famili! Mama-Babah-Fahmi-Fatini...May Allah bless n help us all!

I've been keeping this feeling for quite sometime...so today i have decided to let it go...so that i can breath!! i need my soul to be strong for my loved one! i want to do the best for them... My dear hubby...i want u to know that i love u soooo much (infinity)..i really appreciated your understanding n courage for letting me did what i am doing rite now! Nothing will come between us. I love u more everyday! Can't wait to see you this Krismas...

My Love, Fazly...Thank you. Fahmi n Fatini sayang... Thank you! . My family...BIG THANKS! to all my friends near n far...Thanks for being there whenever i needed you guys the most!

Ganbatte Kundasai... Chaiyok! For everybody who is still in the battle of study... working... anything... All The Best! 'Allah will help those people who help themselves!' InsyaAllah....

What a relieved... :) Last but not least...Live your life to the Fullest...

History start today...

Finally i have decided to start blogging.. TODAY i will write something...after being a loyal follower to my fren blogs for quite sometime! hahaha i have no idea where to start..what to write...what to share...anyway...i'll try!

Ermmm...actually i am suppose to do my works rite now. unfortunately my heart is elsewhere! i cannot concentrate..huhuhu missing my kiddos n hubby so much! once upon a time...i love to express my feeling by writing in my little sweet diary but somehow i stopped long time ago..i guess it was when i got married! No time to myself...hahaha...then further my study.... committed with research. After wrote down what i felt...there was a relieved!! I guess it's time for me to write again... so now let's start writing again by e-blogging...who knows...i can let myself loosen when i write here...

DEC..the last month of the year! what are the success that i've achieve this yr huh?!!! i can't really tells...anyway my first n foremost aim is to finish my thesis n go back reunite with my kiddos n hubby....wanna go home!!! desprately crazily missed home rite now!!!!!

Ok..enough for now...will update more later later later....