Sunday, January 11, 2009

Dunno what to do...

I dunno what to do...really hard to make a decission if everything is not finalized yet!!! I wanna to stay but if I stay...i have to have money!!! oooooo dear... it's make my life miserable! i can't focus with this thingy hanging on my mind. I wanna to go back.... i need my family now! n my family need me badly especially the little one! Fahmi n Fatini already 6yrs n 4 yrs old. Fahmi need a proper education and now he doesn't want to go to school unless i am back with him... Bizzare! What an idiot and selfish mom am I?!!... But my things here is not settle yet! oooooo dear... my heart and soul hurt so much when I think about my kids n my husband ( n my parent in-law n my mom). Oooooo dear.... I dunno what to do. So much sacrifice they did for me... more that i could imagine! I can't live without them...my sweethearts.

Oooooo dear. I love to stay for the sake of my works. Prioritize things...family...PhD...? Now I want to finish off what I've into for 4 yrs.... sigh! Bad mom..bad mon..bad mom..that's what I am.

I DUNNO WHAT TO DO!

5 comments:

areT said...

zura..aku doakan yang terbaik utk kau..susahkan bila melibatkan keluarga..insyaallah..percayalah...setiap kesusahan pasti ada kesenangan lepas tu

kisah kita said...

zura....
banyak2 berdoa pada allah... ni ujian di hujung jalan sebelum kejayaan zura... insyaallah.. zura akan jumpa penyelesaian bagi semua masalah ni...

Zura Hamid said...

thanks my dear frens...i'll pray for the best! May Allah granted me the strength and courage to finish all these

onenadiana said...

Zura! jgn give up dan susah hati.Ur such a strong lady, tak semua org mampu buat apa yg kau dah buat. Come on... dah 4 tahun, sikit lagi je.

Btw, u are definitely NOT a bad mom... pls dun say that, remember that u did all this for your family kan...
Percaya lah, One day ur kids will look back and say " i'm so proud of my mom and i would like to be hardworking and strong like her". U definitely will be their role model. U are a very good, responsible mom for wanting ur kidz to have a good future.

Pls remember that all your sacrifices will be Extremely worth it and aku doakan semua akan dipermudahkan utk kau.

Nurul said...

zura..ni link blog aku..yg lama tu buang la.yg pasti blog aku ni sgt pasal pengalaman aku pregnant seme..maybe bosan la..hehehe

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